Life is shitty but there's always toilet paper...

where there is peace and quiet. Where I would not fear for the people surround me. Where my heart will not ache and wish to be in another place. Where I could be just me. Where I can breathe easily and not hear my heart cry out of frustration or deception. I want to go to that place, that world where I can be me, where I can be free and at peace to be with me. Where I can be respected, where I can dream without being laugh at. Or even question for dare to dream. I want to go to that place where I went when I was a little girl imagined, that place is called Elbor. Is a place where the river's water is crystal clear, the heart feels at ease, the earth is one with the human, and the human is one with its surroundings, the citizen do not meddle in petty dramas, neither  interfere in verbal fights among men. They do not dare to hear what the other utters, but are quick to move when there is an innocent at stake, or a person bleeding to death. Where is Elbor? I fear I had lost my way while I have been jailed down in an disenchanted island, whose glitz and beauty has faded because of her children. She is careless what they do to her. I sometimes wonder if the road back to it is in my blood but I a coward once again to dare to look at my blood, I could pop some pills and be done with it. But it never works. I end up falling asleep and waking up with a headache. I am tired of people looking me down and spitting me at my face cursing me, pushing me down. I am at a point where I can do it any longer. I want to be back to Elbor. To the place where the land is green, the light is warm and the soil is soft. The bird chirp happily to one another. Why I was not able to go there some years ago why I had to wake up once again to a reality that kills my very spirit as I breath the air through my lungs. My heart is at a point that is wishing to be free. It is tired on being tied down by the haters. It needs to move away from this place.

Dang! I used to have this song  re-play several times when I was in my tweens. Errr i love to death the With Honors OST and this song along with Your Ghost  sang by Michael Stipe and  Kristin Hersh along with The Pretenders " Forever Young" who could not resist it! I mean okay every seems to remember the "I remember" sang by Madonna but  that song was the least played on that cassette, I remember playing with the buttons just to hear the distorted version rotfl.


The Cult's song marked me so much that I even had it played on my walk-man as me and my baby brother inside the car that had my father's casket  march on to the burial site. I remember my grams and my mom asking me to leave the walk-man off but I being me, I refute it and say there should be a bigger reason to have not my walk-man on. Erggh! I hate funerals and my way to rebel against the crying and the whole she-bang that comes with it  has always being putting my headphones over my ears to sush the atmosphere and play the soundtrack of life. So if you asked me what song I recommend to hear during a wake regardless if you are bored or just  among the mourners I will say She Sells Sanctuary  the original version and have the rest of the world blur out as you go into a place of pure rock and plain good old   sanctuary filled with good jamming vibes. Who needs to cry when you should  be jamming to commemorate a life that has gone to another plane.





 Care to join-in a hippy rock love fest dance with  punk rock attitude? Come on I know you want to!!!!

Errrrggggghhhhh!! One thing that I hate the most is when I have in my mind clearly the steps and what I am going to do, but when I sit down in front of the laptop I am overwhelm with so many ideas, lost for words. easy distractions, and to top it off the heat and humidity is driving me nuts did I mention the annoying music that surpasses my headphones with my Work it Playlist. I am currently riding this road over and over the past few weeks. No guidance but my own guts which right now are pretty overwhelm, tired and about to tell the world around FU and I am fearing that they are also thinking of saying that to me!

                                                            The Creative Process

I look at this pic and I could not agree more, this has been my intellectual state for the past year. First the rambling of the ideas, then the change of ideas, then proposal, back in and out, re-shape everything ooopss did you know your idea is no longer the one that you had in mind for the thesis, right? Jaja Yup this pretty sums it up!

 They tell me this should be easy but for those who have walk in a similar path they know this is like giving birth to a monster for over around a whole year. Is a mental pain, my body a few months ago paid with physical pain. Many folks who are collegues tell me you are taking this to seriously but I digress. I own it to myself and to the population who I am aiming my thesis- project towards. My project is aim at the homeless from the Urban Center of Rio Piedras who are immerse in the addiction circle and how they can integrate themselves to a society that despise them already for either one of their human conditions. I want this project to be something more of an inspiration or at least that is taken into consideration by the local community and for that I need to bust a work and take it seriously. Why?  I was thinking like most of my collegues did and still do about the process, but getting in touch with a local community that has been having trouble  with thenearby homeless and seeing through a collegue the willingless of a local leader from that community to shift the paradigm of the homeless are a problem, and they are responsible for all the problems that our community has. Hello this is  a great window for my project and who knows if the community of homeless accepts even better.  I am already have been having feedback from two social workers who have been working with community. I am not getting y hopes yet, because there is a stubborn pebble in my way. Which i hope I will get rid out my way in the near future. Hopefully tomorrow if not by the time of the remainder of this semesters is done.

My colleagues tell me girl you should just program it and be done with it. I already know how is going to be program and about the budget require to program it... ay,  ay, ay should I pull it up out if my sleeves like the rest of you do?? Also ... hello !!! I am taking info from the homeless the least I should do is give them something back in return besides a thesis that is going to collect dust at the library like all the good projects, plans and  programs that many of my fellow colleagues presented and now they are a laugh in the face for the sake of planning. Way to go University of Puerto Rico, Rio Piedras Campus Graduate School of Planning, no wonder why we claim and throw fist every time we reclaim respect whenever a psychologist, an architect, geographer, a social worker or anybody else  seems to the job we where working our derriéres off for how many years in the god cases two years but in cases like when there is no courses for my concentration neither a decent professorship to help in the thesis... um  I am still missing a reader for my project, yay!! So I am right now  with my mind going in circles, over, over, over, over, over, over, over again... you know what I am going to Spin Around Kylie Minogue's style and FYU!

I could not be happier today! I saw history in the making! A team that everyone doubted but finally after years of been laugh at the came out on top.  La Furia Roja ... reaches the well earn top spot in the  World  Cup!  ¡Arriba majos bien merecidos se los tienen!
                                                 Photo obtain from Eskup's Blog original source Reuters 

Also I would love to know how if Alejandro Sanz will maintain his promise...  oh yes he tweeted that he will stop smoking at the end of the year!! But not long before he smokes smokes some good old Cuban Cigars!



Oh my Heavens! It was interesting reading his tweets through out the World Cup.And boy is the second time I miss the big celebration in my ancestors home, in this case in the African continent and Spain... here are for the nations who competed in this World Cup and a great  standing ovation to the ones retiring after this World Cup. Among them my dear Fabio Cannavaro and Carles " El Tiburón'' Puyol. The first from the game and is his last game at the international level. Both I bow in respect and admiration.

                                                                    Fabio Cannavaro
                                                Source Reuters, found it at Accidental Sexiness

                                                                Carles '' El Tiburón'' Puyol      

                                       Original source Lluis Gene/AFP/Getty Images found it in Nj.com


The two heroes! 


                                                               Iker '' La Muralla'' Casillas
                                                          Source TheAge.com




And Andrés Iniestas and his controversial and winning goal!!!

                

Oh and how can I forget Paul. I just hope if they are thinking of killing him that he finds asylum in Spain or Peta better start moving to safeguard him.


Here are to the Great Titans that play fair and good in this World Cup and for the many that will come!
                                         
                                         Diego Forlan from Uruguay. Best Player at the World Cup
                                      Source Richard Heathcote For Getty Images found at The Guardian

Whatever happen to the will of sitting down and talk?
Whatever happen to be willing to speak with the heart and let the reason get along with the desire of the heart?
Whatever happen to look at things from a broader perspective in this world?
Whatever happen to the will of reaching out for yourself ?
Whatever happen to the main aim in one's life, for your load to be fulfill and share the load of the Universe's  Master Plan along with the rest of this Earth and the rest of the Galaxy?
Whatever happen to be willing to let my walls crumble down to let my World behind this big thick wall merge with the rest of the Universe's World?

I am still me, I am still a human, I am still my best friend, I am still my best partner, I will not falter to myself and to nobody's else,I am standing on my ground firmly with my head upon high and broad shoulders with open eyes and open heart letting the light come to me a midst the grey clouds of the tempest.... and I am still a warrior of light

A Warrior of Light is clear of what she or he wants. She or he will never dare to confuse with beautiful words neither trick the worst adversary which is the self. Is clear, honest and firm in the battlefield. Is willing to sit down and face the truth and be willing to fight along with the light to scatter any shadows that are cast upon the self. She or he is not afraid to face the darkness for she or he is one with the self. She or he are clear of their voice, they hear their hearts and their reason are clear as the pristine waters of Eden.  She or he will not let what others dictate their routes and their plans for every Warrior of Light is clear of their mission in the Universe they stand in.

I normally would not brag about lipstick but Revlon has force an me to get out of my mummnes and give the word of mouth regarding their new line Colorburst!!Is been over a month after I got my very first two lipsticks from this line. I am not fond of lipsticks but these lippies have force me to reconsider about my options for coloring my lips . My first tried was with Soft Nude. It was my very first nude shade I was a bit scare and crossing my fingers I would not regret my purchase. I was afraid it will make me wash out and make my lips feel as if they have been scrape with sand and enhanced the worst from them. Nope it was totally the opposite. I felt my lips moisture, burst in color and glossy enough to not reach for a lipgloss to compliment the feeling of moisture and hide the imperfections.Later that week I went again and got myself two more shades from this line. I got Fuchsia and Coral. Fuchsia nowadays is the shade I am using the most. It helps me revive my face with a burst of color and who says that I need to pimp up my eyes and wear blush when I am wearing this shade. In my opinion is a good shade depending on your skin color an acceptable bright electric pink for work, specially on those days that you feel you do not want to put on the best of your eyes and do an entire routine of make up. With this shade you just feel like putting on the foundation or the tinted moisturizer and dab a bit of tis shade on your lips and voila ready to go on the route for your daily routine with a op of color. Also with the passing of the hours is up to you if you want to re-apply it but for me I like the lipstain that these lipshade leaves on my lips still bright but not as as bright bright as it was on when you apply it. With the Coral shade. It does not look as a bright orange on my lips it kinda looks like a red orange if I build it up.  I am looking for the occasion to wear it or when I fall out out of love of the Fuchsia shade which i doubt will not be any time soon. And recently I got the Carnation shade. I wanted this shade to be my second yet it was actually my fourth from this line.  At first I was not impressed with the shade I thought oh God another blah pink and it looks a bit more brighter pink than my actual lips if I dab it only once over my lips. Then I build it a bit more and I got this pretty pink shade over my lips that is decent enough to go along with a neutral color make-up color or that lip shade that you go to when you want to put in a bit of a tiny bit of color on your face. Also is a soft-bright pink work- friendly shade. Did I mention this shade is the adult version of a girly pink? Also I think I found the lipstick version and with more color than my Avon's Glazewear in Tickled Pink. Did I mention it sort makes my teeth appear a little bit more of a lighter shade.:-)

I think I will be getting  more when my pocket will allowed me the shades of Hazelnut, Baby Pink and True Red ( to compliment my matte red hot from Clinique)

Pros
- It glides very smoothly wait a second am I wearing a lipstick? And they stay a bit longer than some lipglosses.
- Buildable cover, but with two coats you already get the full coverage. One coat gives you some color but not sheery.
- Good and sturdy packaging
- Has nothing to envy to the lipglosses( in fact they feel more moisturizing than some lipgloss brands that I tried) or the high end brands.
Cons
- Price errr $ 8.99 bucks per lipstick. Even with  a bogo of get one half-off is still expensive from what I am willing to pay but then again I got already 4 lipsticks from this line. Three with a bogo purchase and one with a cvs coupon. Just wait until they are in offer and hopefully there will be a price drop in this line.
- Mind the pressure when applying. It already glides smoothly like butter on a crisp hot pancake! So you get the idea and place it somewhere where the sun or heat will affect it.

                                                            (Source the Feminity Coach)

Uff I have done many things to try and figure out my face shape. Erg! For some people I am round face but when I did a little test in front of the mirror I figure out that I was in fact an oval face. Why people confuse being chubby and rapidly say they have round faces. Silly nilly people! Ok here is what I did.

What you need to do it.
A mirror,
Good light,
An elastic band to tighten your hair or a headband,
A lipstick that you are not too fond or you are about to discarded.
- Pull back your hair yes include everything use a headband for that or use a scarf to make one.
-Stand in front of a well lighted mirror in a not so long distance neither too close. Is up to you to determine.
-Pick that lipstick and start drawing in the mirror using your face as a guideline to determine your face shape. You will start at the hairline following my the soft or sharp edge of your forehead following along the lines of your face reflected in the mirror.
-Once you are finish drawing your face shape in the mirror stand back and use the chart above to determine your face shape.