Life is shitty but there's always toilet paper...

When I first saw this playlist it brought to me several images of my life and some other people who are in the media and in my family, from androgynous people like Bill Kaulitz , the typical portral of what is a man like Hugh Jackman or as womanly as they come as Anne Hathway and to gay in your face no puns as Perez Hilton and Melissa Etheridge ( warrior woman XD ) to my cousins and my uncles. What makes us and define us as a male or a female? How are we suppose to act loyal to ourselves, to our gender yet continue on on a castrating society? It brought me to ponder and look at myself. I am abnormality. What feeds the common idea of being gay, heterosexual or even the identity of one´s self in front of our naked self in the mirror. Please watch this presentation with Judith Butler.

Eu quero dançar tudinhas meus preocupaçoes com minhos pés dançar com a alma e meu coraçao tudas as minhas penas. Por uma melhor vida para mim.

Is going to make a huge hole in my pocket but I know is going to be worth it!!! Now which one is going to be first. First I need a lens for portrays. I know I should get the 50mm but from I read i can do more meaner things with a 35mm since I like to shoot on low lights a lot and try to avoid as much as possible the flash that comes with the cam... party pooper blegh!! Also I want a longer range one than the 50-200mm but for now I will need to suffice with these two for this month then do a bigger investment when I finally graduate from graduate school and start working in my calling!! No I do not think been in your calling is a job cause then that might be boring >_<. Me wants me will get! :-) I will get it sooner or later~ rubs hands and laughs evilish~~

Taken by the astronout Soichi Noguchi

What we can have at our plazas instead of desolation. We need spaces that integrates us all not segregates us by class.

Take notes my fellow urban planners!

I believe love can conquer all even the toughest barriers including those of country, physical,time and emotional .Love can blossom with a smile or a gaze but it takes years to mature into something real, beautiful and meaningful. Love will come when the time is right and not when we seek for it . Even the greedy is surprise when finding the other half of the heart being the contrary of their own love's desire. For is in the greedy-love seekers' curse of such becoming lust and dust nothing more than regrets when the first drop of betrayal arrives at wicked hour of despair. You can encounter it by accident yet it can come unexpected accumulating it self from years of trust with a friend. Then again love is something complicated that it just happens when we least expected from the unknown to the known you never guess when it will come into your life ; for we are not the complete masters in this realm. Where heart and mind come together in one beat then you will know you have a great treasure in your hands.

Well I don't know how I should start writing this entry. I am really shaken just a bit. A little boost to the ego yet I am kinda of happy that I did step forward. Is little to what I could to do for a region that spark my interest in International Relations, to look outside the 100x35 terrain, for the women in that region whose actions committed against them in the 1990s made me take notice and force me to say never again, never again shall we see another history like, never again shall we see an entired generation dissapear. Fast forward 10 yrs, here I am in the edge of me becoming a planner but still my focus is in the international field. Why you may ask why am I interested in the international field if i can my best in my country. True about that. I always seen the big picture in one that includes the lesser fortunate, the whores, the children, the elderly, the past, the present and the future. I can not let myself look at the micro knowing there is still another country that is or could had undergo our same problems. We could learn from them or at least share a bond between those countries of whose faces we could never see or even greet with a smile.